Adventure-less

Whenever I watch movies like Into The Wild or 127 Hours, I always want to go on an adventure and explore the world (minus the need to cut my arm off). I've never had much of an adventure. Never really had the time alone to explore the world. I love marriage and I love having my son, but sometimes I would just love to go off the grid and disappear for a while. I often feel over-whelmed, but push it aside for the sake of others. Just until recently, I have worked and gone to school full-time, all while trying to help hold a family together. I've often neglected my sense of self. I don't have time to exercise anymore or play the bass guitar or God forbid, actually hangout with one of my few friends. I do the grocery shopping and am overwhelmed at the amount of options for something, something as stupid as what freaking bread or cereal I want to buy. There's too many channels on the tv, so I end up watching something that just barely holds my attention. I love music, especially of the heavy aggressive variety, but there are so many copies of copies of copies, that I don't want to listen to any of it. Really, I think that's what bothers me most about most things in life. There's too many copies. When you look at just about anything from tv to radio and everything in between, it's pretty much a "How can we take this, repackage it and resale it?" mentality. I think, beginning very soon, that I will start to unplug myself from this world. It's time to focus on myself and regaining myself and my identity. In order to be the best husband and father, I need to know who I am first and foremost. In the words of Chris Titus, "I'm not a failures. I just succeed in finding what doesn't work." It's time to find out what works and what doesn't.